Escaping my brain

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Escaping my brain

Post by Penguin » Mon Nov 23, 2015 5:26 pm

Feeling ragingly incompetent and lacking in resilience. Logically I know I shouldn't think this, but yet here we are. Why can't I escape my own brain? Why can't I keep my shit together ?
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by Parla. » Mon Nov 23, 2015 6:02 pm

Sorry you're having a craptastic time. "This too shall pass?"
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by kingofthedivan » Mon Nov 23, 2015 6:18 pm

i'm sorry to hear you're feeling this way, i think i recognise that frustrated feeling too.
The research by Brene Brown on the incredible similarities btw vulnerability and courage got me thinking about those moments when i lose my shit and then instantly feel ashamed that can't keep it together. Because if my friend told me the stories that I'm telling myself, I'd say she was being brave. But for myself, I say all this emotional hoohah and vulnerability is getting me nowhere.
And sometimes knowing that all this feeling is totes illogical and counterproductive makes it all worse because somehow the stakes are higher when you care so much. So please be kind to youself, cos you're awesome.
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by Esther » Mon Nov 23, 2015 6:22 pm

Because it's the end of the year and it's seriously nuts?? Hugs Penguin.
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by Mummy woo! » Mon Nov 23, 2015 7:24 pm

We all ebb and flow in terms of resilience - being tired, run down, pressured all mean that a tiny thing can get to us more than usual. Says the woman who was nearly blubbing watching ballet rehearsals on Saturday :oops: :roll:

I'd suggest you probably are keeping your shit together but it feels like only 'just' when you'd rather have a bit more margin for error. Anyway, if you need something to do, make a list of essentials and inessentials, then draw a big X through the inessentials - you know the drill. Simple meals, edit down the social obligations, chill out with the kids and simplify their routine (extra playschool FTW). And be kind to yourself. You're tops. We all think so, and dozens of forumites can't be wrong, right? 8)
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by ~WildChild~ » Mon Nov 23, 2015 9:36 pm

I blame 'end of yr itis'. So much to do, not quite enough time to do it.
I write to do lists for each day on my white board & cross off as I go.
I get vague when I'm tired & busy. Not a good combo. I still don't know where I put the container of DS2s uneaten school snack or the paper towel I got out to put egg shells from boiled eggs in. Little things but frustrating!
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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by Bailey's Mum » Tue Nov 24, 2015 12:12 pm

It's like we're the same person in different skin, my friend. I'm having similar challenges. I know all about mindfulness, CBT, etc, and I know I should be using them, but sometimes it's all just too much and woe is me is easier. I hate it. I really do.

Big hugs, and lots of gentle care and compassion coming your way. Send them back when you're done, though. :wink:

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Re: Escaping my brain

Post by Jenbt85 » Tue Nov 24, 2015 1:16 pm

I'm sorry things are still hard for you. Others have great suggestions, I just wanted to add that it's ok to not be resilient all the time and to lean on people until you're back on your feet. I'm not sure what your circumstances are (and not prying) - but would you expect someone else to be coping differently / better under the same conditions? Be gentle with yourself.
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